June 27, 2005
En Route to London
Well today quite frankly was shit. Pure unadulterated shit. I cannot properly express the distinct measure of sadness, loneliness, anxiety, excitement, and fatigue I feel at this moment. Everything is ok though don't get me wrong. All except for the fact that I've just left my home and my family for the second time. That's right, I've just left Edinburgh.
Maybe for my own record keeping sake I ought to try to recap the last hectic month of my life as I severely neglected my blog. Try as I may, though I'll never quite recall everything I ought to add here. Working the bar at the hostel was easily the best time I've ever had working. The job was simply great, I worked for and with great people and I loved every minute of it. I could have stayed another month or 4 and just continued on but time wasn't nearly on my side. We bid farewell to some longtermers (Elana, Ruffee, Constanza) and a whole slew of new people came in. One of them an Edmontonian named Heather who I sort of took under my wing and helped her get settled in. I can't put to words how incredible that girl is and we hit it off straight away. She's definitely someone I'm going to meet up with again. Perhaps before we go back to Canada. She's made Edinburgh twice as hard to leave for me. I was able to do a lot of really fun things the last few weeks of my time there thanks to her. At least I know we made the most of our time. I'm going to miss her a great deal.
Stefano came back this week after his exam in Venice. He's doing great and still texts Tash all the time. Him and I are going to meet again I know it. We have some travelling to do together.
I'm going to miss Canada Day at the hostel which really sucks. I made a huge playlist of Canadian artists for the bar when they celebrate it there. I think I'll be in Paris that day. Oh well, could be worse. Speaking of the hostel they threw a big going away party for me and Constanza a few days ago. I was working that night behind the bar but I was able to get a few glasses of punch behind there before finishing up and joining them. It was quite a ridiculous night but so much fun. I was murderized the next day though. Worst hangover ever. I slept until 5:30 PM and started pulling pints at work at 6:00. Needless to say that was a rough shift. Worth it Im the end though, naturally.
My last days here were packed full of touristy things I was doing with Heather. My last day (yesterday) we got up and climbed Arthur's Seat. Phenomenal once again. We had a pint of beer in the sun on the Royal Mile (high St.). After packing we did our last quiz night at the hostel and won the Vodka. Fantastic. Next I said goodbye to a lot of amazing people. Friends I'll never forget and many of which I will see again. The session continued when we all packed into Chris's room where we sang all their classic
Songs. (Rumpy Pumpy, bouncing on your belly, sexual junkie, and dirty dan.) Eventually we made it to the penny black which is a dirty pub that opens at 6AM here. So I finished my marathon with a pint at the penny black then hopped on my bus at 8:25 this morning. I haven't slept in god knows how long and I'm on a miserable bus to London. Firstly the bus went to Glasgow which took 1 hour where I had an hour stopover then onto my 10 hour bus ride to London. Currently I'm 1 hour away, after I get there its 1 hour more on the train to my friends waiting for me with their van. I cannot wait to see them.
I had the most terrific day in Edinburgh and it was just heartbreaking to leave. It was heartbreaking to leave the hostel where I've made my home for the last 3 months. It was heartbreaking to leave my friends and co-workers who all lived there with me and seemed like family. It was heartbreaking to say goodbye to people who will be my lifelong friends like Jonathan, Stefano and Heather. I know I'll see them again someday but it doesn't make leaving any easier. It was heartbreaking to leave the most gorgeous city I've ever been in especially after being a part of it.
Now before I start to sound too sulky or remorseful let me add a bit of context and qualify this a bit. Of course I'm excited for my trip this summer in the van. I'm sure I'll have the time of my life and my future entries will no doubt reflect this. However until you've gone out totally alone with nobody at your side for as long as I have you cannot appreciate how attached you become to people and places you love no matter where you are. It makes it so difficult to leave. So what I'm trying to do is take a snapshot of myself at this point in time so I can remember everything I went through. I think that's important. I wouldn't be doing the experience justice if I didn't talk about the downs as well as the ups.
I don't find travelling alone easy, I'd never claim to. I love the people I meet and hate leaving them. Travelling alone has afforded me the opportunity to meet people whom I'd have otherwise not. After this van tour though, I think I'll be over it. I might be ready to find Heather and Stefano and travel with them. Going it alone has been good to me and the experience has been unique and rewarding but I'm ready to share the experience with others now. So I think I'm going to start today when I meet Ben and Mel.
P.S. Someone was just trapped for 5 minutes in the toilet stall on the Bus. I thought that was worth a mention.